I have gone silent again. Last two days I didn’t talk to anyone. Anyway I hardly call anyone so there is no question of someone calling me also. But then I didn’t talk to the shopkeepers or pan walla also. Few days back I was laughing at everything, in all silly jokes and was enjoying the life. But I was aware something was bothering me from inside.
Will I really recognize her the moment I see her? I have read numerous theories and blogs of this topic. And have concluded that if I am spiritually advance soul, then there will bells ringing, there will 100 Watts bulb glowing all over me as soon as I see her.
Is your ‘fuse’ too short? You may accept anger as a part of your life, but do you recognize that it serves no utilitarian purpose? Perhaps you’ve justified your short-fuse behavior by saying things like ‘it’s only human’, or ‘if I don’t express it, then I’ll store it up and have an ulcer’. But anger is probably a part of your that you don’t like, and needless to say, neither does anyone else.
Then she asked me, “What is love then? Does it really exist, or it is just a thought?”
That was a sudden unanticipated question, so I took a while to answer it “For me, love is just a name to a particular thought on that very moment. But, we have been taught to identify certain types of feelings with love.
For the past one hour, she was trying to read that book. And every time I looked at her, she was in different position trying to adjust her reading posture. I could easily make out that she was not enjoying the book, her mind was somewhere else.