Time is changing fast for me. Many things are happening in my life. Some desired and intended, some undesired and unintended….
Whatever they are, they are shaking, shattering, breaking me apart. I am going to a place where I don’t see anything. Only darkness. I am loosing myself somewhere in this darkness.
I don’t understand why I was moving away from this world. I am here, but not here. I do things, but I forget that I did it. I hear things, but I forget what I heard. What am I thinking ? Where is my attention ? I don’t know. I am just lost.
Is it because, somewhere I have realized that I have the lost the battle of life? Is it because, I have realized that my existence in this world now has no real meaning ? Is it because, I have realized that it’s too late now for me to rise and shine ?